Suicide - Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings
- Low self-esteem
- Guilt
- Worthlessness
- Anger
- Feelings of not belonging in the world
- They can’t see any way out
- Shame
- Fear
- Rage and frustration
- Panic
- Self pity
- Feelings of failure
- Feelings of being rejected
- Feeling hopeless as if there is nothing to live for
- Despair
- Not caring if they live or die
- Feeling life will never be satisfying
- Not liking themselves
- Feeling irretrievably damaged
- Feeling unloved
- Life seems more terrifying than death
- Ambivalence: Is a marked feature of suicidal people. It is the confused feeling of wishing to die whilst simultaneously wishing to live, so that they will continue to seek to live whilst also seeking to die. This will also mean that they will reach out for help but then say that they don’t want help.
Now I have started
to make small steps
I need to remember my search
I am looking for me
to make sense of what has happened
to forgive myself that
I am not perfect
I have made mistakes
I will make more mistakes
I need other people
I am not always strong
I have been wounded
I don’t fully understand
I can’t ‘pull myself up’ alone
I get scared off easily
I am just human
I need you to understand that as bad as my life seems now,
I am not bad or useless. I am just human and I need time.
Don’t look at me with your pity. Please don’t believe
that I am less because I need more.
I need someone who will see me.
‘Surviving’

